So, we left Arizona today (Sunday). I have lived in AZ my entire life (almost 45 years), and now we have left. In those 45 years the longest I have ever lived away from AZ is 8 weeks when on vacation.
Now we begin our journey to our new home in Idaho. As you know we have been preparing for this for a while now (see all my other posts on it if you don’t know – check out the “Moving” section of the blog). Our stuff is on the way up there and we are currently starting a week of vacation on our way to Idaho.
“G” made a very astute statement just the other day about why she thinks she isn’t feeling sad about the move yet. She said, “It feels like we are only going to be a vacation. And that is why I think I am not sad.” When I heard that I thought to myself, “Maybe that I am thinking the same way”. It has felt a bit like we are preparing for a vacation, but I know it isn’t. We are moving. We have now moved.
Today was hard. “A” got the opportunity to stay overnight with her best friend one last time and then we picked her up this morning for church. She was crushed leaving her best friend. She cried a lot, and that made me cry. I have cried a couple times during this process, and today was another hard day for me. Seeing her so sad made me hurt. I don’t like seeing my family sad or hurting. That is when I get sad. So there were tears throughout the day for me. Any time I saw “A” crying I started crying. Any time I looked at her and I thought she was about to cry, I started to tear up. I am a fixer and I wanted to fix it, but I knew I couldn’t.
This is going to be a very hard time for her and I. It is going to be VERY hard for her, and it is going to make it hard on me (and my wife). I just have to be there for her, and allow her to be sad. I have to be there for her in case she wants to talk about it. Which she doesn’t at the moment. I just hope there will be times when she does want to talk about it.
For now though, there will be sadness and tears. I know God has it all figured out, and I truly think this is exactly what He wants for us. Everything has gone so amazingly well so far that it would be hard to argue that God wasn’t opening doors like crazy for us.
I’ll write more tomorrow or the next day about the other events that have happened over the last couple days, but today I just needed to write about leaving and the sadness that has come with it.
I think you all need to watch or rewatch the Pixar movie “Inside Out.”
Then maybe go to see “Inside Out 2” in the theaters now.
Maybe – the girls have seen the first one before.
Time for movies are few and far between.
Thanks!
I commented to A that it took a little while for us to see that our move to Arizona was definitely God’s plan for us. The biggest thing was His plan for you and B to meet!
I’ll be there in a heartbeat if you need support.
So so sorry, it’s very difficult. My parents moved our family to Arizona from California when I was 17. I cried and cried but it ended up being a good move. I made lots of new friends and kept most of my childhood friends. I will be praying for your family in this new season of life. Much love, Dezi & Susie
Thank you Susie! Prayers are what we need.